silence

The silence kills me. It's when my thoughts build up and I can't stop thinking about life and death. You are to die in a few months. If something was to go wrong i couldn't live with myself. You are my world. All of my friends are based off of you. I am finding you more in my life then i have ever with any one. There even is someone who looks like you. It's a trip.

I am creating a silent war between my body and my mind.

You are my love. I love you and I always will. Sometimes it seems like we are drifting apart from each other. The thought of me and you not knowing each other is the tramatising. We have changed each other making better of us. For the better of the world. For all humanity. Maybe that is going to far but you are the biggest part in my life and I don't want to lose you over something that could save you. You have opened my eyes to a whole new level of humanity. You are my greatest educator.

Thank you.

I'm sorry

I fucking made her cry again!

what the fuck is wrong with me!

I start out as a lonley invisible bird observing hell its self, then turn into a phoenix and start telling her truth.

then im the one in the end that is called the bitch.

here we go again

I'm not sure how long i can deal with her. One fight isn't enough for her. I try to make it better but whenever that happens it turns into my fault. It will always be my fault. I know that not true or i just don't want to make it true, But every time she says that it leaves a mark, and the mark is getting deeper and wider and soon will curupted my way of life.


You have a lot of problems going on with you. Many dealing with health and age. I wish i could help you more, but I'm not sure that the help I can give would satisfy you.

I want the fighting to stop so you can live a life you won't regret.

A long windy road

You are my best friend and i do any thing for you. It's still a big shock to me, i never really thought to myself that anyone close to me would go through so much pain that you're going through. Until recently i thought the world to be a long straight road to something infinite and only a few speed bumps to slow you down. Know it's a small windy road on a cliff, and if you take the wrong turn it can effect your life completely, but man it's a hell of an adventure the best adventure you can have.

All of your dreams you've told me has led up to this. You told me you were young, and watched everything. Well to me it seems like you can't do anything but watch your life unravel. I'm here to put you back together and i will always be there, you can count on me to heal your wounds.

No matter what happens we will stay on the road through any weather and become immortal. Let's not make this ruin our adventures

The garden

Oh oh i really wanted that thing
I just want to sing
I love you baby
Won't you bring
All the flowers you
Find out in the garden
Don't tell me the truth
That your heart has hardened

But you don't want me anymore
How can it be
Look what you've done to me

Oh oh
Oh oh the bee does quickly sting
I was wondering
If you could maybe darling
Think? I'd give everything
If you'd grant my love a pardon
and all the fruits
Again would fill the garden

But you don't love me anymore
How can it be?
Look what you've done to me

Oh oh

oh hum

Awe homework, it gets the best and worst out of ya. The good side- you get great confindence from it, knowing that you are doing it right and learning things you never knew. The bad side- it makes you into a deranged monster and you destroy anything insight. You get angered at the smallest word and try to start fighting with someone because you gotta get your anger out. You want help but when someone tries to help you, you just get extremly annoyed with them. They will start telling you to calm down, and tell you they are going to leave and come back when you are in a better mood. This angers you more and you start screaming and saying you are fine and whenever a question is asked you answer in a hard and loud voice. Of course this is taking you knowhere, and if you try to do your homework it doesn't work out, es no bueno. So you just stare off in space and day dream, cutt up anything you can, doodle, or anything else you come up with. Then that person comes back into your space and all of your memories come back, and you start to get annoyed again but you try to hide it and tell them to leave you alone. But when they are gone you go back to your project of procrastination. It's probably the best way to go.

Night

If you haven't noticed all my blog postings are done at night. For me it is a time for relaxation and concentration. It's also a time for opening up and going to your wild side.
With all of those things put together I am able to write whatever comes to my noggin.
Thats also a reason they aren't that long...

Do you smell that... it's excitment

It's October!!!
The month of Holloween :) this year is going to be so exciting and full of adventures...fuck yea