i can't wait for all the activities we are going to do this summer. and all the attempts to make a couple bucks. the LImonade stand will be fun. i've never did that childhood lemonade stand to make money for the coolest toy you ever saw. but i am very excited to "experience it" with you. and i am sure some other money making idea will pop in our heads and we will achieve to do it.

DANCING is going to be the one of the highlights of the summer. going to the performance saturday to see Kings Krew will be the start of that adventure. and when i get back from boise we will start our dancing again!!

the country fair is going to be bi-far the most craziest adventure we are going to go on. getting ready, picking out an outfit, makeup, camera, meeting new people. going on some cool adventures. anything could happen only if we want and make it happen.

the rest of the summer we will fill the rest of the time with mini adventures that will be amazing and fun. maybe 1 or 2 or maybe 7 or more parties.. hmm. ;)

this will be one of my best summers. its good to have FRIENDS like you. we are good FRIENDS

i already miss you.

you've only been gone a day but memories keep popping up of the good times and the sayings you say that just have a sense of sticking around.

our friendship has grown so much this year. so many fun times and hard times. we hang out basically everyday, it is going to be weird and hard not going to be able to see your for a month and a few weeks.

haha and i want to hear you get back from mexico so i can hear what you sound like. speaking spanish for only a few hours and you couldn't really talk. speaking spanish for a whole month...i don't know how its going to be. haha "hey gurls" haha

gone only one day and i already feel like something is missing.

have fun in mexico and sweet home alabama.

i got the taste of the crazies

pain, pain, pain.
annoyances, pain.
warm rain on my back feels so nice.
need to lay down in the rain,
feels so nice.
music, music, music.
the sound of music sooths my head.
sitting in the boat where it rains quietly listening.
relaxing in the boat. hunger.
boredom, pain, annoyances.
walking in the grass, pacing myself.
back and forth i walk. forget.
feels nice, but only for a moment, then more pain.
stressfully walking back and forth, bordering the yard.
im a marker coloring in the box which is the yard.
foot in water. feels so nice.
eyes see hose. idea.
grass is thirsty, give it a glass of water, bucket or water, hose of water.
my feet felt the water and it was complete extacsy.
more, more, more. going overboard.
thigh deep in water. an artificial rain storm
back and forth.
wanting, waiting. puddels
cold rain feels nice but my mind still thinks of warm.
had enough, still want more.
too cold. run to shelter, warm by the fire.
music is nice. pace back and forth in my room,
feeling the music take over my body.
dancing. jumping on my bed. dancing
hunger. pickels..yuck, maybe with tuna.. yum
tea would be nice.
hurry into the boat. nothing but my vest.
raining again. warmth felt good. boat is feeling up.
swimming in the little boat. relaxing in the little boat.
sleep. music comes. sounds so familiar.
lovely noises surround me.
purple is for roalty. i am a princess.
wearing my big necklaces. its raining up. water in my eyes.
half dry. need glasses. scavenger hunt for big glasses. red.
foggy can't see. who needs to see when i feel so nice.
feed me something. tuna sandwhich appears.
eating in the pool
half hidden, half in the open
taste good, i need a break, taste again.
all gone
relax. listen. no pain. leave.
im sane once more.

im not use to this

after a long period of keeping my thoughts in my head. it is wierd to write them down.
sometimes it doesn't come out right, or sometimes it doesn't even make sense.

i just need to start writing on this again to share me thoughts the way my thought actually are in my head.

"ugh stop complaining Amara!"

when i hear all the bad stories dealing with family situation, i start to think how stupid i am to complain about mine. i have a good life and i am just taking it for granted and fighting for no reason.

my life is so normal, i am just another annoying teenager that complains that their life sucks when other teenagers would kill to have a life i have. even though i had a weird childhood it still beats many other kids childhoods. i still am envious of other peoples life that are better than mine, but that is all i want "things i can't have" and once i get the chance to have them i don't want them, or if i have them i want something better. it really makes me sick to my head.