for what i will be sacrificing*

hearing your voice is theraputic.
without it, my insanity escapes.

feeling your touch gives me warmth.
without it, i freeze.

your presence is comforting.
without it, i feel alone.

our trip

on the road surrounded by laughter,
laying in the grass on opposite ends
replying with greater smiles than the last.

two critters playing,
chasing eachother down to the stream,
listening to the water
watching the trees flow to the sounds of the water.
eyes widen,
a small smile blooms into a colosal flower.

laying on the overgrown picnic table,
with warm company.
perfect silence fills the area
fingertips reaching as far as they can reach.
moving with the air
feeling it,
loving it,
being with it.

chase me back to the field
lay me down
and watch the sky turn to night.

follow the lights with me back to home.
gazing at the moon.

kaleidoscope.

trees are caught in a freeze frame.
they are dancing.
more steps forward their dance evolves
gracefully.

home shines in the darkness.

bring me to Warmth.
bring me to Love.
bring me to Happiness.
bring me to Peace.
bring me to You.

Question leaving my in "uh"

I find it sad how it's hard for me to answer the question "What is your personal accomplishment?" I sat infront of the computer thinking and really thinking "what is my personal accomplishment?" Nothing popped up. When I was interviewed for a job I was asked "what is your greatest goal that you have accomplished?" I was blind sighted, I couldn't see anything that was so great in my life that I have actually accomplished. This thought makes me sadly wonder, what great accomplishment do I have to tell? I may be overlooking the question, I tend to do that sometimes but, I think something so great should stick to my memory.

I want to live a more spontaneous life.
I want danger
I want excitement
I want to stay up late at night in town
I want to go to the mountains
I want to go to the first showing of movies dressed up as a character
I want to swim in a lake
Or go rafting in the river
I want to get lost in a forest and have to find my way out
I want to wander my way to a beach
I want laughter till the point of tears
I want to do some of the dares we all made up last year
I want to paint the city
I want to have a paint fight
And throw paint balloons on white walls
I want to have a powder paint fight
I want to learn to dance
I want to learn different instruments
I want CRAZY moments
I want comfortable awkwardness
I want the sun
I want to travel to places near and far
I want comfort from random people
I want people to leave me alone when I write
I want more art supplies
I want to throw away things that I won't use anymore
And not care if it could be used by someone else
I want to get dirty
And not care about the clothes I'm wearing
I want a spontaneous person to do this with
I want money so I can do what I want
I want to get in trouble
I want new clothes
I want a new environment
I want to meet more interesting people
And stay in touch with them
I want to DO things
Instead of WANTING to do them

sudden urge

While walking home after a long day at school, I suddenly felt a jolt of joy and weightlessness. A few steps further I found myself humming the tune "singing in the rain" which is quite opposite of today. Today was sunny, warm, and I wasn't singing (for the sake of the people of course). I said hello to strangers walking past me and went right along humming the sweet tune. I wanted to get home immediately so I could sit and let my dear little fingers type away at what they have been urging to do ever since I started humming.

Basic Space

something is going wrong.
did i hit the wrong button? did you not read the manual?
somewhere in this space ship is not right.
we are to far out in space to turn back to earth safely.
all we can do is work together to figure out the problem.
or
maybe we need to go to seprate ends of the ship.
then, maybe we can find the problem quicker and save wasted time.

all i can say is we need to find out what is wrong quick
or
this ship won't last.